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25 November 2013 @ 12:09 pm
Because one day of Thanksgiving isn't enough (1 of 7)  
As is my tradition, I kick off the first day of the week of Thanksgiving with the first day of a week of appreciation.

Today, I give special thanks for my job. When I interviewed here, I got lost on my way to the office, and I wound up in the middle of an area I didn't know, with no understanding of how to get from where I was to where I wanted to be. I called a cab, but since I didn't know where I was, I couldn't tell them where to pick me up. After growing increasingly frantic and basically giving up, and then deciding, what the hell, I really need to give it a shot, I found a landmark and finally caught a cab, arriving 10 minutes late for my interview.

Looking back, I still sometimes have heart-in-my-throat moments imagining if I HAD, in fact, given up trying to get here, because this job ... people, this is the job I never in a million years thought I would have, where I have a sense of belonging and purpose and mission, and I'm empowered to make decisions, and my contributions are valued, and I understand what I'm bringing to the table and why it's uniquely mine. I mean, I have had other jobs I liked, but none that lit me up and gave me a sense of future growth and possibility, and, you know what? It's so amazing.

I was always envious of people who had a calling or a sense of obvious career pathing. My career path isn't clear, but I have the strong sense of growing my skills in directions that are both interesting to me and marketable in modern business, which is a powerful force fighting against the persistent fear that lives in my heart that life is fragile and uncertain and I never know when things might fall apart and I wind up homeless and alone. (We all have that fear, right?)

And the people here! If we have to have a social structure that leads us to spend the majority of our time with strangers who we don't get to pick and choose, I have somehow, magically, wonderfully arrived in a company that is WAY above average in the quality of the people who I work with every day. They are competent, honest, full of integrity, and so kind, thoughtful, and friendly that I feel warmly surrounded by fellow humans every day in the best way.

I really feel like this whole thing is completely undeserved -- an incredible stroke of luck -- and I want similar strokes for everyone.
 
 
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harimad on November 25th, 2013 06:47 pm (UTC)
There's an episode of The Amazing Race were the pair were having almost infinite trouble completing the task (swimming, as it happened). The one was encouraging the other, cuddling her, comforting her, but always saying "We're going to do this" even though they'd been at it for hours and were no doubt eliminated.

Guess what? They did eventually finish and it was one of the very rare non-elimination rounds.

bison need inbbbsg on November 26th, 2013 02:35 am (UTC)
I am so happy to read this.
lazyzlazyz on November 26th, 2013 03:53 am (UTC)
My heart thrilled for you, my golden dragon child.