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10 January 2014 @ 08:19 am
things that scare me most  
I'm working on the writing exercises described in Return, exploring fears and things that scare us. The first part of the exercise is to take 10 minutes to write the things that scare you most, and later, another 10 minutes to write in depth about one of them.

Each of these has woken me in the middle of the night to wrestle with at least once:

The inevitable death of people I love. Being seen through. Exposing vulnerabilities and insecurities. Losing everything and winding up homeless and alone. That I secretly don't matter. The exposure of my worst aspects. To be seen as foolish. To be seen as incompetent. My own inevitable decline and death. Pain, both emotional and physical. Loss of love.
 
 
I'm feeling: thoughtfulthoughtful
 
 
 
existential hot showerveek on January 10th, 2014 01:40 pm (UTC)
Love you. Looking forward to reading more.
lazyzlazyz on January 10th, 2014 01:43 pm (UTC)
Gosh, that could be my list.
Sandrosandhawke on January 10th, 2014 02:21 pm (UTC)
Yeah.... Definitely.
Molotov Coqtiz: saul's delieestiplika on January 10th, 2014 04:15 pm (UTC)
i love you
wild, predictable abandon: me_laughing_bwcontessagrrl on January 10th, 2014 05:32 pm (UTC)
I love you, all of the time.
phoenixamber_phoenix on January 10th, 2014 07:44 pm (UTC)
Ouch. Even imagining doing this exercise scares me.

(I do, however, love both you and the term "hugging spiders". Thank you for sharing this.)
ruthless compassion: martini handsaroraborealis on January 10th, 2014 07:48 pm (UTC)
Ouch. Even imagining doing this exercise scares me.

Yeah, me, too. That's why I had to do it!
funner'n a sack a weaselsmoominmolly on January 13th, 2014 05:39 pm (UTC)
What an amazing list. Perhaps I should make my own.

PS, I love you.
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