I am completely crushed out on leatherbydanny

Also, wheeee! I posted the first comment to the 2009 LJ confessional!!!

There was a certain party configuration mentioned in this thread last year that I fantasize about on a regular basis.

Me, too. *swoon*

You should totally edit this post to link back to past years. But not to boss you around or nuthin'

Just an idea...

Done!

The words "I love you" were exchanged recently. It has me pretty freaked out.

How so?

Crush confessional: I have a crush on deadwinter,who seems to crush on half the female universe...but not me.

I *think* I know who that is, and if I'm matching LJ name up with actual person correctly, I have been trying to decide whether to crush on him or not.

I don't like to masturbate. I really need a lover to get off. When I do it it feels like a necessity and a chore.

I mostly agree. My lovers are better at getting me off than I am. It's frustrating!

My jealousy makes me really doubt my ability to handle poly relationships sometimes.

We love you too much to give up. (+, OMG sex.)

I have an ex who is arrogant and narcissistic and emotionally constipated...and I still totally want him.

Not *quite* the same thing, but I almost never stop being attracted to someone once I've been attracted to them, so I have some exes that I still want to fuck, even if I no longer actually want to be in the same room with them.

(which would be quite complicated, now that I think of it.)

I'm thinking about having a baby. I'm scared about how my partners will react to that idea.

I am in exactly the same place.

I have such a huge crush on this girl in my lab. She's so sweet (and so straight) and she's just so serious and empathetic and smart and did I mention she takes things just a bit too seriously? And I just want to get her pants off and show her what *I* take seriously.

Well, if it's any consolation, I've always considered myself to be ridiculously straight, but what you said, just there? Pretty fucking hot. Maybe you should say something. Maybe she's not as straight as you think. Maybe she's not as straight as she thinks. ;)

I'm deeply in love with someone who probably will never give me what I most want in our relationship. Almost every day, I consider ending it, but, so far, hope has triumphed over reason. I tell myself I'm strong for sticking with her, but I'm afraid I'm really just weak for not making the hard decision to pursue my greater happiness.

I didn't write this, but I could have... except that I'm under no illusions that I'm being strong.

This has been a year of limitless love and hot sex. I am awed and delighted to have found anyone at all that matches so well with my desires for companionship and perversion, let alone so many and in such amazing combinations.

My sincerest thank you to anyone who gave me bite marks, endorphin rushes, bruises, enormous wet spots, and weak limbs. My equally fervent thanks to anyone who helped me appreciate a good wall or gave me Those Eyes or lubed up a glove or grew their hair so I could grab it or...yeah. Thank you and damn the calendar, let's do it again and again and again.

I totally feel this way as well. Sometimes two (or more!) people just click in the right way and the results are amazing. I feel incredibly lucky and blessed to have found somebody that I click with that way.

The fun part of anonymous confessionals: for all I know, I could be responding to something written by the person I feel this way about. Who knows!

Although I'm "popular" in that "Hi! Good to see you!" way, I feel like no one wants to be my friend. I've made some overtures that were only tepidly accepted, and none returned. I feel very discouraged.

This

I have a long and (afaik) unrequited crush on chillguru. Ever since the first time I saw him blow his sax on stage, I've wanted to wrestle him to the floor and have my way with him.

Highly recommended!

I don't believe that other people have sex as hot as mine. I've had a lot of amazing sex in my life, but the stuff I've been having for the past year or two is hard for my mind to even hold on to, it's so good.

I find it eerie that I did not write that comment, because it's so exactly true for me. It's a little scary to know someone else is experiencing the same thing.

my libido has been really low for a while. i've been blaming health problems, but secretly i wonder if i'm attracted to my partner anymore.

It's a very good question to be asking! I wish my ex had asked it far earlier than they did - it could have saved us a lot of pain.

I have a wonderful secondary-style relationship, and am dating others, but have no one whose primary focus is _me_. I'm ok with this (hell, happy with this) most of the time, but every once in a while a huge wave of sadness passes over me and I'll start crying out of the blue.

Also, I wonder if having all of these wonderful people in my life (who already have primary commitments) blocks me emotionally from finding one of my own.

I am in a similar situation, and I have slowly become unhappy with this, and more sure that yes, my complex emotional entanglement with this system is most certainly the reason I haven't found a primary for me.

I know the change I need, and I don't want to do it.

My marriage is so devoid of content it hurts. I'd like to just up and get a divorce, but my spouse is trying to work through her deep depression and I don't want to make it worse. But I don't know if she'll recover from her depression before I sink below mine.

Having been through this (on the other side of the equation), I have mixed thoughts. On the one hand, I want to say to wait it out and be supportive. God knows I wish my wife had. On the other hand, you need to be happy and us super depressed people are no fun and are particularly draining over long periods of time. For me, I know I can be quite the emotional leech when I'm having a bad spell.

So, yeah... be happy, however you need to do that.

Well, this is more f'd up than I even care to admit, but... ever since hawkegirl got knocked up by that other guy, I've wanted nothing more than a scorching hot threesome with BOTH of them. UGH. Fantasy is a weird weird thing.

ROFL.

FWIW, I didn't write that. But it did make me laugh.

(It seems written to suggest I did write it, and several people have contacted me about it.)

I wish I were more selfish. It looks so satisfying.

Oh, totally.

I feel like I'm always standing on the side, waiting for permission. Why can't I be the one who everyone wants to kiss? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and all that, but sometimes I just to feel like I'm scorchingly, undeniably HOT. I envy the people who make that look easy.

I've felt this way for a long time, but feel like I'm starting to come out of it -- I'm still sort of waiting for permission, but I'm getting better at letting other people know that I'm *wanting* permission. :)

I suffer from ongoing, highly detailed fantasies about that boy, naked or clothed. OMG.

I used to have those.

I have a total crush on klingonlandlady. Articulate, intelligent, beautiful and pursuing her interests and dreams. I am in awe.

I can't look at some of the pictures of klingonlandlady and frobzwiththingz entwined in silks together, because the beauty they create together with their bodies and their art is so painfully blinding.

I've had a thing for someone who's never going to date me for almost two years now. I want to get over it, but even after a year of putting each other through hell we're so comfortable when we are hanging out and not making each other miserable that on a fundamental level I can't wrap my head around the fact that nothing is ever going to happen.

This. OMG this.

I like making beautiful boys cry. I beat them and use them and make them want, want, want, and then hurt them some more until they beg and cry. Then I like fucking them senseless.

In particular, I want to do this to both chillguru and fennel.

Oh. Oh my. Oh my yes.

Also, can I watch?