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15 October 2012 @ 02:37 pm
This is the first day I've felt like myself for a couple of weeks, and it's really nice.

Two weeks ago, my uncle died, and I've been laid pretty low by sadness about that. I'm still sad today, but I feel more functional and like I'm integrating the sadness into my emotional landscape more than I'd been able to before. So, that's good.

His memorial service was on Saturday, and it was really wonderful. I loved hearing stories about him -- funny ones, loving ones, wistful ones. It was so neat to hear a bit about the inside of his other relationships. It made me think a lot about how we know people as we know them, but we often don't get insight into the different people they are with different people.

I cried a lot, and it was so helpful to be surrounded by people who are similarly sad about his death. Cousin Sarah had lots of old pictures all over the place, which inspired people to tell a lot of great stories. So many people loved him and will miss him.

It was also really good to hear about times in his life before he had Parkinson's. He lived with it for 20 years, so pretty much the whole time I knew him, it was in play, and it was always a big point of discussion and concern in the family, of course, so certainly it was a huge point in my experience of him.

I'm still sad, of course, but it feels good and right to be sad about losing someone I loved and miss.
I'm feeling: peacefulpeaceful
unintentional baitredheadedmuse on October 15th, 2012 08:41 pm (UTC)
thank you for sharing this. you've been very much in my thoughts.
Elizabeth Hunterlillibet on October 15th, 2012 09:05 pm (UTC)
Really glad the memorial service was good for you. I always find it comforting to know that the deceased it's remembered by other people, as well, even if a each have our own version. I've been thinking of you lots through this.
traballenguastraballenguas on October 15th, 2012 11:31 pm (UTC)
So glad you are working through this and feeling better.
Co-conspirator of Squeemuffyjo on October 16th, 2012 01:24 am (UTC)
When I connected the dots and realized it was your Uncle's memorial at the church I go to I was so heartened. Everyone said wonderful things about him. It's how I feel about you as well.
veek on October 16th, 2012 12:43 pm (UTC)
Really looking forward to seeing you today. <3
drwexdrwex on October 16th, 2012 04:13 pm (UTC)
If you feel like telling stories
*sits a while and listens*
Boring Nerd: wolf kahnsignsoflife on October 16th, 2012 06:34 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, Rosa.
born from jets!!!catness on October 17th, 2012 07:53 pm (UTC)
Best wishes on your continued healing, and I'm very sorry for your loss.