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20 February 2015 @ 09:04 am
Confessional 2015  
Tell me a secret! Tell me a not-secret! Whisper sweet somethings in my comment box. Express your maddest crush or deepest curiosity! Expound upon the fabulousness of your friends or lovers or would-be friends or lovers! Or people you know or want to know. Do it anonymously or with your name attached; anonymous commenting is on and IP logging is off.

You know you want to!

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I'm feeling: curiouscurious
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on February 20th, 2015 06:02 pm (UTC)
Addiction
I'm having a lot of trouble with addiction. Skipping from one thing to another, realizing that something isn't good for me, and just moving to something else. Alcohol, drugs I can get my hands on, relationships (I'm married with a family) and dating, video games on my phone or the computer. I think I'm addicted to being numb, to tuning out, to sleep and oblivion. I'm addicted to being wanted. I'm fantasizing constantly about going down on someone other than my partner. Meanwhile, my house is a mess, my work is sputtering along, and I'm getting fat. I'm not getting anything done because I'm watching Netflix and looking at Facebook. I hate Facebook. I'm scared, so scared that I'm too weak to handle this. All I seem to be able to do is the bare minimum to keep things going, meanwhile chasing the high and letting things drop. I feel terrible about my life, my wonderful life.
(Anonymous) on February 20th, 2015 08:28 pm (UTC)
Re: Addiction
sounds more like depression than addiction. Depression pushes us to do things in a compulsive way that can be hard to distinguish from physical addiction.
(Anonymous) on February 20th, 2015 08:55 pm (UTC)
Re: Addiction
agreed entirely. OP, have you seen someone about the possibility of depression?