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20 February 2015 @ 09:04 am
Confessional 2015  
Tell me a secret! Tell me a not-secret! Whisper sweet somethings in my comment box. Express your maddest crush or deepest curiosity! Expound upon the fabulousness of your friends or lovers or would-be friends or lovers! Or people you know or want to know. Do it anonymously or with your name attached; anonymous commenting is on and IP logging is off.

You know you want to!

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I'm feeling: curiouscurious
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 05:27 am (UTC)
How I want you
I won't ask, because I know it isn't mutual. It kills me, but I won't. I'm lucky to have you as a friend. I'm lucky that you smile when you see me, that you give me hugs, that you tell me, "so are you," when I tell you you're awesome.

I know I look boring on the outside. I know you have no hint of how much intensity, how much passion for life boils within me, tight under the lid. I wish you would give me a challenge, a quest, a Herculean labor that would win your interest and desire!

I want to write poetry that makes you come. I want to feel you throbbing under my talented fingers, see you arch your back, mouth and eyes wide open in joyous, blinding shock. I want to perform a sonata of sensation upon you, most beautiful instrument. I want to make your knees weak and your soul blissful. I want to see you give yourself to me, willingly helpless, lost in a warm pink haze of delight without thought for a timeless age. I want to caress you with a single, feather-light, tantalizing touch gliding slowly, enticingly, from your ankles to the nape of your neck, wandering closer, closer, to your places of perception that make you writhe and crave and beg and demand.

I want to hold you protectively afterward, as much or as little as you want; I want to watch you sleep and slowly shed my gift to you of triumphant exhaustion.

My body is in love with yours; my mind bedazzled by the hundred ways you are wonderful. My heart wants playful, sweet friendship beyond words. My soul wants to rend the world asunder and remake it into a place where we are together, even if only for a night to treasure for the rest of our lives.

I ache so sweetly to ask you, but I will respect your wishes.

Though my heart and mind both do me violence,
for thy happiness I give thee silence.
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 04:41 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
I find this 100x creepier than the dirty limerick (or any dirty limerick) ever could be. It makes me shudder with repulsion. The limerick was a silly ditty that i could ignore, but your eloquent fap-fantasy fills me with squick. I defend your right to voice it, but I will also trust the fates that it isn't about me. If I thought for a minute that it was, I'd check around the house to see what could be used as an improvised tool of self-defense.

Rather telling that I'm the only person reading who feels that way.

Capcha: Safety first. ((((OH HELL YES)))
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 05:01 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
You're not the only person who reads it that way.
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:48 am (UTC) (Expand)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 01:33 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 05:01 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
you're not the only person, though my response wasn't quite as strong.
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 05:06 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:49 am (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 06:25 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
Why would you assume that you're the only person that feels a certain way, just because you're the first one to speak up? Do you assume that silent people always disagree with you? That seems a little weird to me.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:44 am (UTC)
Re: How I want you
(OP) It's not about you. (She's not reading the confessional.)
I'm sorry you were squicked.

I won't post anything like this again. I certainly don't want to get reactions like this.
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 06:06 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
Unlike the other commenters, I think this is rather sweet. I think it echoes what a lot of people are thinking about their loves and are too afraid to say anything about publicly for fear of reactions like the above. I hope you find that special someone, and that you and them are everything you hoped for. And I hope your life together is long and happy.
(Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 06:23 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
Agreed. What made it seem sweet and kind of lonely rather than icky was, to me, the poster's obvious respect for boundaries. Most of us have felt intense longing at one time or another for something or someone we couldn't have... It's certainly not a crime.

(and I'm a cis woman)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 08:06 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 22nd, 2015 08:35 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:31 am (UTC) (Expand)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 01:33 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 04:54 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
I think it is wonderful that you have the courage to want with such intensity. Fantasies are free and don't hurt anyone.

I don't find this creepy at all. I find it lovely.
(Anonymous) on February 25th, 2015 08:47 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
I also thought this was quite sweet. Please, OP, don't get too discouraged. You CAN please some of the people, some of the time (and.. you know the rest).
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 06:09 am (UTC)
Re: How I want you

I miss when the confessional used to be filled with things like this. Erotic yearnings, crushes, desires... Such a delight! I personally would enjoy more posts like this and fewer self-loathing, self-pitying, and despair posts.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 01:57 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
I would also love more fun confessional posts like the one that started this thread.

This winter is getting us all down, man.
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 02:08 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 10:20 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 10:23 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 05:13 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
I think it is wonderful that you want like this.
(Anonymous) on February 24th, 2015 06:51 pm (UTC)
Re: How I want you
Unrequited love (or passion) is so so hard. I hope for you that you find someone who shares your feelings.
Re: How I want you - (Anonymous) on February 24th, 2015 07:48 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on March 2nd, 2015 12:02 am (UTC)
Re: How I want you
Also a cis-woman. I thought this was beautiful, hot, and respectful all at the same time. Thank you for sharing, and I'm sorry sharing it caused you some pain.