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20 February 2015 @ 09:04 am
Confessional 2015  
Tell me a secret! Tell me a not-secret! Whisper sweet somethings in my comment box. Express your maddest crush or deepest curiosity! Expound upon the fabulousness of your friends or lovers or would-be friends or lovers! Or people you know or want to know. Do it anonymously or with your name attached; anonymous commenting is on and IP logging is off.

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I'm feeling: curiouscurious
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 07:36 am (UTC)
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I have had interactions with friends & acquaintances where I'm the asker and never the askee. It can really frustrate me and make me feel like my so-called friend doesn't give a shit about me. I have talked about this with my partner, and his response was, "I tend to not ask about others and wait for them to share what's going on with me because I don't want to come off as prying." I had never really thought about it from that perspective.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 01:33 pm (UTC)
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I also used to be a never-asker in many situations, and likewise did it because I didn't want to pry.

I think this is completely compatible with the gender critique people are making. My *motivation* was that I didn't want to pry, but the effect was that the women I was talking to had to take conversational risks that I didn't (the risk of prying), and had had to do life work I hadn't (learning how to ask about people's lives without, in fact, prying).
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 01:41 pm (UTC)
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THANK YOU.

Even if the motivation is kind, the end result is that the other person in the conversation has to carry the management of it while not getting to participate fully.

This matches perfectly the larger patterns of gender in heterosexual relationships where women are responsible for the logistical and emotional work of the relationship and men ride along not really ever having to show up in that way. It's not that men can't, or wouldn't want to, but that they're socialized without these skills so completely that they don't even notice that they're skills and not just the way things work, like relationship physics.

Society will be a LOT better off when we figure out how to parent boys who do the same kind of emotional and logistical caretaking and management as we train girls to do.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:11 pm (UTC)
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I am a dad desperately trying to guide my pre-teen son in such a more positive direction of being emotionally-aware, boundary-aware, self-aware and it is a draining process. But I just read about the situation women around me have to deal with in the professional and personal scene with regard to men and I really don't want to have him contributing to the problem - if anything I hope he will be an example to friends, peers and later, colleagues.

I am far from a perfect example but I have so many women who are speaking out for what they want as an example for what to teach as de facto standard. So I keep trying myself and with my son.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 01:44 pm (UTC)
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(OP) I am also concerned about prying, but there are totally ways to be curious without prying. On this date I totally dropped in lots of lead ins to prompt questions. "Oh, yeah, I had a boss like that once too." (Correct response: "oh?"). "Yes, I've seen that movie. I didn't like it as much as his other works." (Correct response: "why?")

Hell, you don't even need to verbally express questions after lead ins like that. A simple raise of the eyebrows and cock your head to the side says "really? Tell me more."

This is especially true in non-date situations a commenter mentioned above. A close friend who says "wow, I'm exhausted, today was a hell of a day" is INVITING you to express interest. I have trouble believing someone who doesn't accept that sort of invitation is just avoiding prying; they just don't care.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:16 pm (UTC)
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Ahhh, unrelatedly-- I had an ex who always shut those prompts down. Drove me nuts. If she said something interesting and I said "oh?" she would say "yep." I had to ask very specific questions to get any kind of elaboration, and it felt like she was trying to be deliberately mysterious.

Obviously she had other awesome qualities, and I don't have a general conclusion here, other than: people vary more than I ever expect in what they think the standards for maintaining a conversation are.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 03:44 pm (UTC)
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Cis-female, traditional gender-role raised, mostly female-identified person here, and... I gotta tell you, I am *awful* at following these prompts and asking these questions. I know it, I hate it, I hate that I do it, I try to stay aware and do better, and it *still* happens. I do care about my friends and want to hear about their lives, but there's clearly something else going on there that I haven't been able to unwire.

{No, I've never been diagnosed as on the spectrum and don't think I am.}

I've wondered if it's some variation on geek answer syndrome, or if there's some variation of socialization that's about shared stories building connection rather than inquiry. People volunteer information, rather than others asking about it, and that if someone wanted to talk about a thing, they would. Working on the premise that the person will speak if they want, and if they don't, I'm not going to ask and I'll talk to fill up the silence. So, it's less that I don't care or actively avoid prying, and more that I go in with the assumption that people are going to talk about the things they want to talk about and not talk about the things they don't.

I can tell you, realizing the missed opportunities to have asked those kinds of questions after the fact? Hurts me, and makes me very aware that I may have inadvertently hurt the person I was talking to.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 04:29 pm (UTC)
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"some variation of socialization that's about shared stories building connection rather than inquiry"

(OP) I get this. I actually much prefer conversations centered around shared stories. The "social bids" I tend to make are all around shared stories...what I want, really, isn't for someone to ask "So, what do you do for a living?" (although that's fine) but to show active interest in hearing my story. Which is why I make bids like "Yeah, I had a boss like that once, too." What I'm saying is "We have something in commons, I want to talk about it, and I want you to confirm that you want to hear what I have to say." When it goes well, we have shared stories and both feel like our stories were interesting to our partner, and theirs were interesting to us. It's hard to feel like someone is interested in MY story if they don't respond positively to my bids. I think questions are the primary way to do that, but other cues will do too: regular old body language like nodding, meeting my eye, cocking your head...and of course, waiting for me to finish my story, and then bid with a story of your own.

I said that I hadn't noticed the non-question-asking pattern others here have mentioned, but I *have* noticed what I think is a similar/related pattern which is interrupting my stories, which indicates a lack of interest. (Of course, that lack of interest might be a result of my having exceeded my socially allotted story time...which is why conversational skills are required on both sides: the speaker needs to sense when it is time to stop, the listener needs to give cues about their interest.)

Ironically that's something I know I'm guilty of myself. It stems from being excited by a shared connection I've discovered and wanting to immediately identify it and turn conversation towards it. I have learned I need to actively quell that response and listen respectfully, and *then* say "Wow, me too! There was this time when..."

(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 05:32 pm (UTC)
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I come from a culture where interrupting is the expected way to move conversation back and forth, and if someone *doesn't* interrupt, that indicates a lack of interest in what you're saying. We moved to New England, whose culture is the opposite, when I was young enough to grow up with some of both, and get used to handling either. I think a lot of people who grew up with one or the other of these have a hard time noticing that their assumption isn't universal when they encounter someone who grew up with the other one.

Something that can work for both styles: You interrupt their stories sometimes, but make a mental note of what they were saying and prompt them a question about that soon after, so they can continue.

You can also say something to the effect of "I want to hear more about that! I've got this related thing I want to tell you before I forget it, but don't forget what you were about to say."
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 06:07 pm (UTC)
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(OP) Oh my, this is interesting. I too grew up in a different area and moved to New England during my youth. I wonder if my struggles on this are similarly cultural. Can you share where you came from and how it works there?

I do the "bookmarking" you describe a lot as a workaround.
(Anonymous) on February 24th, 2015 09:02 pm (UTC)
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(Commenter you're replying to)

In my case, it was Israel.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 07:22 pm (UTC)
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(not any previous commenter)
... and the "before I forget" part is my Achilles heel. Taking notes while still paying attention is also a challenge, so I can't even use tools to mark my place.

I know the interrupting behavior is a common geek communication style. I'm interested in what other (regional? interest-based?) sub-cultures run that way.
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 11:00 pm (UTC)
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Yes! I grew up with this cultural expectation too. If you didn't start talking while someone else was still talking they would assume you had nothing to say (and eventually maybe wonder why you never said anything). I finally learned there is actually a term for it called negative pause time. I also finally learned to try very hard to slow down a lot and insert little gaps in what I was saying to leave openings for other people to speak. It's still really hard to remember though, and when I get very excited and enthusiastic about what I am saying I tend to forget.

(The most useful professional training I ever had actually was on pause time. Different cultures have different pause times, and the differences can be really subtle and easily leave one person feeling silenced and the other wishing they would say more. *Knowing* this has made it so much easier to communicate both professionally and in my personal life.)
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 11:09 pm (UTC)
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Do you have a pointer to any good info about this?
Re: Okcupid date report - (Anonymous) on February 24th, 2015 07:28 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on February 23rd, 2015 06:37 pm (UTC)
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I also wonder if there's some correlation with the dichotomy between "ask culture" and "guess culture"...