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14 February 2017 @ 11:42 am
Confessional 2017  
Back by popular demand! Tell me a secret! Tell me a not-so-secret! Whisper sweet somethings in my comment box. Express your maddest crush or deepest curiosity! Expound upon the fabulousness of your friends or lovers or would-be friends or lovers! Or people you know or want to know. Share your best self-care for the political climate! Do it anonymously or with your name attached*; anonymous commenting is on and IP logging is off.

You know you want to!

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I'm feeling: curiouscurious
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 04:51 pm (UTC)
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 04:51 pm (UTC)
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 04:58 pm (UTC)
I miss contessagrrl.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:01 pm (UTC)
Boy howdy
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:06 pm (UTC)
I am basically getting through this hard time with sex and avoiding the news. I worry it makes me a callous jerk, but I promise to stand up for the republic, I just, sometimes, have to lie down and put my head in the sand to get through the day.

It's really good sex, and it's giving me the energy to love all my people and go to protests.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:13 pm (UTC)
Stress dreams
I've been having almost nothing but stress dreams since the inauguration. They feature any number of things -- trying to travel and experiencing problem after problem, needing a bathroom desperately and being unable to find one, sick pets/family members...

It's exhausting and is more likely to make me fear sleep than straight-up nightmares. I've seriously had zombie dreams that are less exhausting than this.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:20 pm (UTC)
Re: Stress dreams
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:27 pm (UTC)
Re: Stress dreams
I dreamed last night that I was with a huge crowd of people fleeing from... something, and then a train full of white guys with guns rolled up and started firing at us. It was terrifying. And I almost never remember my dreams.

It's been a pretty crappy few months, and an even crappier few weeks.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:30 pm (UTC)
My crush on entrope continues. It is deep and abiding, and full of glee and glitter.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:43 pm (UTC)
aatish is madly delicious.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:46 pm (UTC)
Re: aatish
Agreed. And warm and funny. 10/10. Would continue to crush on.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:52 pm (UTC)
Re: entrope!
OMG yes. For years now.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:53 pm (UTC)
You’re an amazing and wonderful person, and you’ve brought me boundless warmth and wit and joy. We both hoped so hard that the bond we shared would survive long enough for everything else to settle down, and we both must have hurt when it didn’t.

I love my life, and I’m happy today, and I hope you’re happy, too. But I haven’t convinced myself to excise the last of what we had from my heart: it still feels like a part of who I am, or want to be. You’ll always be awesome, and I care about you.

So when things finally get a little easier, if you ever happen to feel the same way, give me a call, okay?
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 05:58 pm (UTC)
I feel as though I might be ready to end a stretch of self-imposed celibacy, but I'm not sure I'm ready for casual sex nor for a relationship.

Yeah. Not sure what to do about this stuff at all, really. But feeling like I might be ready to do something feels like a grand, positive step in my head.
(Anonymous) on February 14th, 2017 06:41 pm (UTC)
Help with bum.
Thank you arora! I've been waiting ages to ask this question anonymously.

Anal play. For the love of god help me.

I feel like no matter how much I scrub or shower or whatever, it is totally impossible to have a reliably clean butt. By clean, I mean, I just want to rest confidently in the knowledge that when something goes into my butt, there will be no poo on it when it comes out of my butt. I swear I am a clean, hygienic, non-smelly human who washes myself regularly and assiduously... I just have no idea how to do this kind of play in a way that doesn't terrify me I will gross out my partner in some terminal way.

1) Do other people have this problem, or is it my own weird physical issues about my body's processing of poo?

2) How much does small bits of non-cleanliness on toys or fingers freak YOU out? Is it the grossest thing in the world, or just the cost of doing business and not in fact a big deal?

3) Is there some fix I don't know about for this?