But! There's a definite up-side to today! I finally girded my loins and contacted one of my old professors from college -- the one who I would call "my professor", even though I worked with many, obviously -- about writing me a recommendation for grad school. I'd been kind of putting that off because I haven't talked to him in almost 9 years and I felt kind of silly about it, and how do you approach that sort of thing and what if he doesn't remember me enough to write for me and etc, etc?
He wrote me back within 30 minutes to say he'd be "delighted to write on [my] behalf" and we should find some time for me to catch him up on what I've been doing. YAY!
Dear self: don't put things off, silly.