becoming more myself:
In a lot of ways, all of the changes I've undergone and undertaken in the last 5 years have brought me to a very different place than where I started, but the best way I can describe it is that I'm more myself than I was before, and it's great. I figure this, like evolution, is a process without a pinnacle, and it's a hell of a lot of fun, so I'm going to try to keep doing it.
On a totally mundane level, what this means is that I like being a smartass. I like giving my friends a hard time in a playful way and generally being difficult. There's a more substantial piece to being difficult, though, that I'm having a hard time figuring out how to articulate. It ties into another of my interests -- confounding expectations -- but it's also orthogonal to that. I'll have to give this a bit more thought and see if I can't come up with a more satisfying description of what I mean.
There's this stupid law against cheese made with unpasteurized milk and aged less than 60 days. But some of the very yummiest cheeses fall into that category! I especially love the bloomy rinded stuff that's all runny and stinky and mmmmm.
Speculative fiction is full of interesting experimental ideas about "what if society were different in this way or that?" which I find really fascinating, fun and engaging. As a genre, it does what my favorite science fiction does without spending too much time inventing crazy physics or needing to set the story on a spaceship or in an interconnected universe. Standouts: Slow River by Nicola Griffith, Beggars in Spain by Nancy Kress.
I, like most people, I think, am pretty possessive about my body; I don't like touch from people who aren't pre-approved for whatever sort of touching they're doing. But I think that we, as a society, don't touch enough, and I really like when I'm in settings where friendly, affectionate touch can be part of the interaction. I like touching the people I like and love, whether a casual hand on the shoulder or arm or back, a friendly tangling of feet during a rambling chat, or a more sustained hug, lean or snuggle.