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22 September 2011 @ 06:15 am
So, I have this fucking awesome job.

I'm coming up on having been there for two full months, though it doesn't feel that way, since I was gone for two weeks at Burning Man. Also, because it's so damn fun. I had no idea that a job could be so fun. I've had jobs I liked before, but never one that didn't feel like work.

It's interesting, because I always figured a person would have to have a calling, and a job within that calling, to feel so satisfied in their job, and I've never really felt like I had a calling at all, much less one that applied in a professional setting and could make money, but here I am, in a job that makes me really happy to be doing it -- pretty much every part of it.

I figure the chore parts of it will turn up eventually, or some of the stuff I'm currently enjoying will become tiresome, but, hey, I'm not rushing that. I'm going to do everything I can to keep it so that I am completely unphased by the hassle or boredom of expense reports and keep the complicated logistical juggles of moving 130 people from their current workstations into new ones without ruffling more feathers than I can smooth back down while also finding the puzzle of it all unspeakably fun.

Seriously, this is awesome.

Someone recently posted this quote from Nerissa Nields in another forum: "Big events, solstices, Christmases, birthdays ... these are hard. They force me to confront just how challenging it can be to ... to be in the present moment and show up for the joy. I am much better at showing up for the tragedies. I am extremely present for the tragedies."

I think it's a lot easier to put all our emotional depth into difficulties, grief, tragedy. Right now, I am putting my all into joy, satisfaction, and delight. Fall is upon us -- a time of endings that are slow beginnings, of long nights and bare branches. For me, this fall is a time to harvest the fruits of the extremely tough year behind me, and to embrace the warmth and light that's growing out of seeds I planted in the cold, dark days of last fall and winter.

What's giving you joy these days?
I'm feeling: happyhappy
gothtique: Underwood fivegothtique on September 22nd, 2011 11:43 am (UTC)
Thank you...
Thank you for sharing your joy!
It's good for me to get out of my head and put some perspective on things... your posts tend to work like that.
... and the Nerissa Nields quote could have been mine...
Gotta show up for the joy!

ruthless compassion: happyaroraborealis on September 23rd, 2011 12:56 am (UTC)
Re: Thank you...
your posts tend to work like that.

Thank you! That's a great compliment.
lazyzlazyz on September 22nd, 2011 12:43 pm (UTC)
Yes, indeed, you're up for the job! Paid your dues, too.
harimad on September 22nd, 2011 12:46 pm (UTC)
How, when I wake up my child in the morning, ze gives me a hug practically before being awake.

One child helping cheer up the other by giving the other a kiss, then announcing proudly "I helped [sibling] feel better!" (It's terribly cute in the native little-child voice.) Then repeating the process till the sibling giggled.
Elizabeth Hunterlillibet on September 22nd, 2011 12:52 pm (UTC)
I think competence is one of the most under-rated emotions--that marvelous feeling that you have the skills to solve a problem, that you are doing useful work that makes the lives of the people around you easier and fulfills a purpose.

I find joy and deep contentment in many areas of my life, fortunately enough. I tend to maximize my life for happiness and it's working pretty well. Right now I'm very excited about the work I'm doing for my next show and our plans for the new house and extremely pleased that the season is changing back to one that makes me excited about cooking.
Blue Gargantuabluegargantua on September 22nd, 2011 01:52 pm (UTC)

I'm finding a lot of joy from this woman I met at a poly-speed dating event put on by another woman who also brings me joy.

m.entrope on September 22nd, 2011 01:53 pm (UTC)
Autumn. I got a preview of it in northern Maine a few weeks ago, and I'm really enjoying waiting for frost and chilly morning walks.

Also, a miraculously healthy dog, imre's impending return, an improbably great relationship with my 16 year old, and watching teenagers be giddy, breathless BFFs.
catcatya on September 22nd, 2011 01:55 pm (UTC)
Things that bring spontaneous smiles to my face:
Really good apples & peaches
Zach glowing when he has to shift his arms to hug me, because he's taller than me.
Zach's bar mitzvah tutor talking about Zach's work
S coming home.
The fact that I could keep writing this list!
jordanwillow: cabiria smilingjordanwillow on September 22nd, 2011 01:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this.
drwexdrwex on September 22nd, 2011 02:41 pm (UTC)
Well, reading this for one thing
I am happy to read that you're doing so well and having so much enjoyment of your job. I understand your assessment of how we're so present for the hard and tragic things and less so for the joyous things.

I think mostly it's my kids that are my major sources of joy these days. Both boys are super-awesome people who do things that cause me and the other adults around them to stare in amazement every now and then. And they still give the best hugs!
Stephghislaine on September 22nd, 2011 02:43 pm (UTC)
Knowing that you're happy in your job brings me joy!

Listening to my son singing in the shower brings me joy.

Inching my car's gas mileage up past 45mpg brings me joy and satisfaction!

Watching my team blossom and do good work brings me joy.
funner'n a sack a weaselsmoominmolly on September 22nd, 2011 02:59 pm (UTC)
Showing up for joy! What a brilliant concept. I shall do more of that.

What's bringing me joy: my KID. Seriously! She is so very insightful and hilarious and loving, I almost want to burst.
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ruthless compassion: happyaroraborealis on September 23rd, 2011 01:04 am (UTC)
I have plenty to say about the job thing, but I'll sum it up with an Annie Dillard quote: "How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives."

My last job was in an organization and field that was really important to me, but the day-to-day of it was miserable for me. This new job is in a company that I can feel good about working for, but isn't My Big Mission, and the day-to-day is great and satisfying. If I have to pick: the day-to-day wins.

And: hooray for joy! This is, I believe, why yix pointed me to your lj in the first place, in fact -- that she saw us doing some of the same stuff :)
phoenixamber_phoenix on September 22nd, 2011 06:52 pm (UTC)
I could say my kids, my neighborhood, California produce, or the lovely Sept summer we're having, and it's true that all those things are bringing me joy, but today I brought in a picture of L and me dancing at our wedding and looking at it is being in extra joy. Life *rocks*.
Co-conspirator of Squeemuffyjo on September 22nd, 2011 11:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this post. There's something magical about people like you who are passionate and engaged in what they are doing that inspires you to want to be like them. To know it exists.

Amusingly enough, my happy space was also my job. After three years of piecing together my world and finances, it feels so amazing to not only have a job but to find a good boss and a good team to work with!

And nesting. Getting my home into better shape, finding all my things and finding a place for them (where in the world is my toaster?)

And there should be margaritas soon. Those would be fun and joyful.
ruthless compassion: squee!aroraborealis on September 23rd, 2011 02:01 am (UTC)
Thank you! That is a great thing to hear.

I'm glad your new job is treating you so well, too!!
born from jets!!!: singcatness on September 22nd, 2011 11:39 pm (UTC)
I find joy in music. And the beach. And my awesome rental car. Lots of simple things.

I was just telling KJC about that the other day, how the difference between me having a shitty life and a good life is often *focus*. 'Cause there's awesome stuff everywhere, and it doesn't take tons of effort for me to find it, just to *notice* it.
The Great Laurenhatsbylaurenhat on September 23rd, 2011 12:11 am (UTC)
Yay yay yay! :) it makes me so happy to hear this.

I am feeling joyful a lot lately, for no particular reason (or lots of little ones). Having a good job interview helped!
whynotkaywhynotkay on September 23rd, 2011 12:58 am (UTC)

My job. Not just the perks, but the actually getting things done part. Unlike the mess I was working on a lot of last year, my job currently consists of small, not too difficult tasks, and knocking them off one by one is incredibly satisfying.

My apartment: I just did some massive further "moving in" and vacuuming and even put cleaned my Burning Man boots.

The weather: SF has been warm and sunny this week. It won't last, but I'm greatly enjoying it.

An upcoming (short) climbing trip.

My friends, many of which I've managed to see recently.

Lots more little things too. There are things I am not happy about, but I'm just feeling great this week, and really enjoying the feeling of being joyful, and I'm going to enjoy it as much as I can, for as long as it lasts.

Thanks for the post/reminder!
mirandamissionista on September 23rd, 2011 02:38 am (UTC)
I'm glad things are going well for you.

Today, the things bringing me joy are:

1) I am working on a really cool exhibition, and I am very good at creating exhibitions, so working on them is the best part of my job.

2) My kid is starting to be able to sing "Wheels on the bus", and she is doing it in a very cute babyish way.
born from jets!!!catness on September 23rd, 2011 05:36 am (UTC)
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh, you and N (and T!) need *this* album:


David Policardpolicar on September 24th, 2011 02:13 am (UTC)
These days, I am fairly detached from joy.

Which is in some sense ridiculous, because there is a great deal going on in my life these days that is, objectively speaking, joyful.
I'm just not managing to engage with it very well.

On the plus side, I am more or less managing to avoid engaging with the illusory sorrows. Which is no small thing.

I am delighted that things are going well for you!